If I wanted a prick I would have taken up sewing..

Okay; so it's my second entry and already I'm going to be ranting. That's pretty bad I know, but then again I did only sign up to this site so that I could vent all of my feelings :D So here we go. Me and Ed have been getting on fine. Everything was going well, there seemed to be a really strong connection and I thought I might have finally found someone who I could actually be on the same level as. But no. Now that's all gone and I'm really upset.Ed still likes Katie. Well; to be more specific he doesn't know if he still likes Katie. Which is fair enough I suppose as he did really like her, but if he had doubts then why did he let us get so far? I mean we got really close, I was seeing him 3 or 4 times a week and it was great! But now I don't know what to do. As much as he says that he didn't use me, I feel cheap and used.. it's just really hurt me. I wish that feelings weren't as complicated as they are but then again if they weren't then there wouldn't be much interesting about them would there.I know I shouldn't be all mad at him and everything, but I just feel stupid. I think any girl would though right? If you'd just found out the guy you were seeing wasn't sure if he wanted to be with you or someone you'd be pretty bummed out too. I really like him.. but I just don't know what to do. I feel like hell. I'm annoyed at him, but I feel like I shouldn't be. I just don't know anymore :(

So tonight, I ate chinese food. And boy did I do it mercilessly. I've already had chinese food at some point in the last 3 days, but I didn't care. I needed something to make me feel better. I was going to load Sims 2 and all the expansion packs (thank you for lending me them Jess!) but I can't find them.. the parents again!Also; there's another stressor. I need to tell my parents that I'm planning on moving out, but I'm terrified that they're going to snap and I really don't want that to happen. Gosh, so much is happening in my life right now, it's crazy!Besides all of this shit with Ed, everything else is going pretty well. College is going fine and I have fantastic friends who are there to support me :) It's all good!

Intro..

Hello there. I'm Karen. Or Karen Anne Inwood to be precise. I'm a seventeen year old A Level student at Lincoln College. This; is my blog, and this is my first entry. I figured I'd use this entry as a sort of starting point for everything.. explaining the situation I'm in so that when I post more, you'll be able to understand it. So, I live with my parents, but basically.. I don't get on with them. For now, that's all I'm going to put on that matter. Next; I fell in love at 16. His name is Adam Harry Papworth, and I still love him to this day. We broke up on good terms, but then things went downhill. I got kicked out of home, and Adam said I could stay at his house (which he shared with Ed and Jay). During that time, a girl at my college who I'd got talking to through Samantha told me she knew Adam. Well she went round to see him, and basically they got together. I didn't mind, I was upset as hell but I wanted Adam to be happy so I said nothing on the subject. Emily then decided to tell Adam that I was spreading it round that he cheated on me (which I didn't) so basically he kicked me out. We had many arguments but they're all in the past now and we're on speaking terms. We're actually mates.Recently, I started seeing Ed. (Yes; the guy from Adam's flat). It was all good, but as you'll see in the second post (yes, I have it planned), things are going downhill right now. Apart from that, the rest of the people in this blog will sort themselves out, as most are either my friends or people I will explain. So yes. That's enough of me to start this goddamn thing.